Thursday, April 17, 2014

Muddy, Mundane, Maudlin, Maundy. . .What?

Even though it’s been a short week, it’s been a long week. Do you ever have weeks like those? With that in mind, it felt good this afternoon to drop into the recliner, throw the blanket over my legs, and soak up the peace and quiet. . .and then, my son walked into the room. “We’re going to church, right? It starts at 6.”

“What?” I asked, genuinely puzzled.

“You told me to take off from work tonight so that we could go to church,” was his pointed reply.

“We have church tonight?” I asked.

Nick rolled his eyes. “Knock it off. You’re the one who told me we were going.” With that, he walked away and left me completely confused.

While I will admit that I “forget” things (translation: temporary amnesia), I am 100% certain that I never said any such thing to my son. First, I didn’t even know that there was a church service tonight, and secondly, I never tell him what to do anymore; he is 20 years old.

Even so, since it is Maundy Thursday, I conceded that there probably was a service, even if I wasn’t aware of that fact at the moment. And in considering the fact that Nick mentioned it and seemed pretty adamant about the whole thing, I also conceded that I was going to church at 6.

To be fair, Maundy Thursday, as well as the Thanksgiving Eve service, is among my favorites. Any service that is person, introspective, and reflective is significant to me, but to be honest, I am not even sure what Maundy means, so, of course,  I looked it up.

“The ceremony of washing the feet of the poor, especially commemorating Jesus’ washing of His disciples’ feet,” is the definition that the dictionary provided.

While washing feet isn’t even on the household to-do list anymore, it was a common practice in Jesus’s time. Back in the day (way back), there were no tar roads, and foot covering was fairly minimal – sandals or bare feet – so when a guest arrived, one of the first tasks to complete was washing their feet.  Obviously, cleanliness was a priority. The water washed away the road dirt. However, washing the feet was also a courtesy. The water and subsequent rubdown was soothing and refreshing for hot, tired, post-traveling feet. In addition, foot-washing was done by servants and slaves and was considered to be a “short-straw-draw.” In other words, it was a task that no one wanted to do; it was a task reserved for the servant of the lowest status.

During His last night on earth following the last meal with His disciples, Jesus decided to wash the disciples’ feet.  The account is described in John 13.

“It was just before the Passover Feast. Jesus knew that the time had come for him to leave this world and go to the Father. Having loved his own who were in the world, he now showed them the full extent of his love” (1).

The Passover Feast was a reminder of when the blood of the lamb was applied to the doorways so that the Angel of Death would pass over that house, thereby sparing the firstborn son. Jesus was the lamb of sacrifice for the worlds’ sins. His blood would soon be shed to spare eternal punishment for mankind. Likewise, he was the firstborn son; his life would not be spared. He would need to die so that mankind could live. All of these things had to have been weighing heavily on His mind, especially as He regarded those with whom He was sharing a meal.

They were His best friends on earth – his confidants, his helpers – but their behavior was discouraging. While they were enthusiastic and loyal, they didn’t quite seem to “get it.” He had tried to get His message across in the most simplistic terms possible – through stories/parables – but it was frustrating because they were somewhat thick-headed. Likewise, as of late, they had developed a new, frustrating habit; they were increasingly full of themselves. Even at the evening’s supper, they had been arguing about who should get to sit by Jesus. Plus, He was 100% cognizant of the fact that one of them, Judas, was going to “throw Him under the bus” later in the evening. I can see why Jesus might have been a little edgy. While He probably was comforted to spend His last evening with them, it would seem as though their behavior did little to assuage His apprehension.

“so he got up from the meal, took off his outer clothing, and wrapped a towel around his waist. After that, he poured water into a basin and began to wash his disciples’ feet, drying them with the towel that was wrapped around him” (4-5).

Why did He take off his outer clothing? The fact that he had opted to wash their feet illustrates the fact that he had willfully chosen to become like a servant/slave. By stripping off his outer clothing, He also stripped Himself of anything that defined Him or suggested His identity. Stripping Himself of those identifiers and labels meant that He had stripped Himself of His status; He was naked, exposed, plain, and ordinary.

In my opinion, the towel around his waist seems to be symbolic of the shroud linens he would be wrapped in after His death. These linens would contain the body that had been sacrificed to wash and wipe away the sins of mankind.

Simon Peter, who would later betray Christ, seemed particularly upset about what Jesus was doing.  “No, you shall never wash my feet” (8).

Jesus sets him straight by saying, “Unless I was you, you have no part with me”(8).

In an effort to “prove” his love and loyalty, Peter responds by saying, “Then, Lord, not just my feet but my hands and head as well!” (9).

Whether intentional or not, Peter’s response grates on my nerves. It’s as though he is trying to overzealously prove to both Christ and the rest of the disciples that he is the “better” disciple – more loyal, more pious, more of a servant than everybody else – but the exact opposite rings through his words. Peter’s response is a perfect juxtaposition to Christ’s foot-washing. They are exact opposites, and his response underscores why Christ wanted to teach this last lesson before heading out to the garden.

“Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash one another’s feet. I have you an example that you should do as I have done for you. I tell you the truth, no servant is greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him. Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do them” (14-17).

The lesson of Maundy Thursday is humility. Since Christ was about to leave and return to His father, He needed the disciples to know that in order for them to continue where He left off, they needed to have the hearts of servants.

Pride is rooted in selfishness, and selfishness says, “me first.” Humility says, “you first.” God’s Voice, purposes, and Will cannot be advanced when a “me-first” mentality is calling the shots.

Even though foot-washing is a thing of the past, the attitude is not. My (our) challenge is to strip away the outer shell – the labels and identifiers- that I have allowed to insulate me and make me of this world.  Once they are gone, so are pride, distractions, and excuses. A servant’s heart of humility is the only choice because I am not my own; I am His.

Maundy Thursday is a reminder that we still need, have always needed, and will always need the hearts of servants.

Monday, April 14, 2014

"Oh, the Thinks You Can Think Up, If You Only Try!"

Last night, as I was proofreading Erika’s research paper, I learned that Dr. Seuss was rejected 27 times. On his way home one night, he literally ran into an old college pal, who worked for a publishing company. The guy took Seuss’s book, showed it to the people at Vanguard Press. They loved it and published it, and the rest is history.

There is a lesson here. First, it shows you just how meaningless someone else’s opinion is. If Seuss would have allowed the judgment and criticism of those 27 editors to keep him from following his passion, The Cat in the Hat and Horton Hears A Who would not be in our vernacular. The point is to be persistent when you know in your heart of hearts that what you are doing is right. In the end, there is only One whose opinion matters.


Secondly, it’s all about who you know. A passion is in your heart for a reason, but dreams don’t just come true. You have to invest the time in both prayer and work to make that dream a reality. If you network with the right Person, that’s when dreams come true. And the way in which He makes it happens is far better than we could have ever imagined.  

Saturday, April 12, 2014

When Friend-ship Looks More Like the Titanic

Friendship. . .relationship. . .companionship. . .courtship. . .Have you noticed the words we use to describe our interactions with others have a –ship on the end? Since I am a wordsmith by trade, I tend to ponder these seemingly inconsequential questions in life. Word etymologies, in particular, are of interest to me.

The word, ship, itself has French origins from the 1300s. It originated as the word, vessel, which originally meant “container.” It has morphed and changed over the years so that ship or vessel is now “a person regarded as an agent or vehicle for some purpose or quality.” Adding a –ship on the end of a word indicates the state, condition, or character of a person or item.

In other words, the –ships you have in your life are an indication of the kind of person you are. Who you hang around with broadcasts what your most basic character and values are, what’s important to you, and how you would like to be regarded by the world.

Of course, you are probably not thinking about all this when you are in the midst of developing and maintaining a ­–ship. As I talked about last time, our priorities as humans are usually in trying to categorize ourselves - to figure out where we belong.

I’ve been thinking about friendship a lot lately, especially since the last couple of weeks have been trying. The frustrating realization that I have come to is that in the most difficult and disappointing times in my life, I have felt abandoned by those whom I called friends.

There seems to be an unspoken rule among the people in this category that light and frivolous topics are fine, but messy, time-consuming, and potentially-controversial topics are out.

This has always been very frustrating for me, but lately, I have decided that I have been thinking about the situation all wrong.

Have you ever noticed that when things go wrong in our worlds, God always presses us to action, and not anyone else? For example in Matthew 6:14, it says, “For If you forgive others, your heavenly father will forgive you.” And “So if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there before the altar and go. First, be reconciled to your brother and then come and offer your gift” Matthew 5:23-4.

I am guessing that there are a few reasons for this. First, the other person might not know anything is amiss, so we fester about something that someone else is oblivious to. Thus, the problem rests squarely with us, not the other person. God is calling us to right a wrong within ourselves just as much as a wrong with another person.  

Secondly, the fact that something is wrong, we notice it, and we fester or worry about it means there is sin involved. Whether it’s ours, someone else’s or a combination, it needs to be confessed and given to God, or we are at #1.

Third, the situation automatically presents a potential for growth. There is no trouble that enters our lives where God does not have a purpose for it.  We’d be smart to be thankful for trials because it is sharpening us to become the person he wants us to be.  We must confess and take responsibility for our own actions, not someone else’s. Difficult situations are pressing us to spiritual maturity. Instead of judgment, criticism, and bitterness, we concentrate more on the character of God.

With all that in mind, the advice and intervention of our friends could be a detrimental distraction and even an impediment in this process. The danger is in relying more on their opinions, acceptance, and counsel than that of our One True Friend. 

Thus, at the risk of sounding like a heretic, the best thing that can happen to us in moments of difficulty and stress is for our friends to abandon us or for God to strip us of those friendships. In those moments, we are forced to rely 100% on Him. His Counsel becomes, and is, all we ever need.

“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you or forsake you” Deuteronomy 31:6.  As He has promised, He is always there. He will never leave us. He always has time for us. No topics are off-limits with Him. Best of all, His advice is always spot-on.


This is good news on a day in a year when the –ships in life seem to be empty and lost at sea.  

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Once and Done?

If you troll through the newsfeed on Facebook with any regularity, you often see various “quizzes” in which one can determine which Harry Potter character he is, what color she is, or what part of the world he should live in. Last night, for example, I saw a quiz on the Wizard of Oz, one of my all-time favorite movies (sorry, Mom, I know you hate it). After answering a few short questions, I discovered that my personality best correlates with Glenda, the Good Witch. Good to know.

Facebook isn’t the only place where such quizzes exist. Open any magazine, and you will find the same thing: Take this five minute quiz to determine if he’s the only for you, or Answer these nine questions to see if you need to get a new job.

We like categories. Most specifically, we like to see where we fit when it comes to categories. It’s just one more way in which we try to decipher our place in this world. Kingdom, phylum, class, order, family, genus, species isn’t reserved only for the scientific realm; the classification system carries over to social science as well – where do we belong?

In our quest to find our niche, we often allow our classification to become a self-fulfilling prophecy. Christians, too, can easily get sucked into this mentality.

A case in point would be spiritual gifts. “There are different kinds of gifts, but the same Spirit. There are different kinds of service, but the same Lord. There are different kinds of working but the same God works all of them in men. Now to each one the manifestation of the Spirit is given for the common good” (Romans 12:4-7). More than likely you are familiar with the rest of the passage; the spiritual gifts are specified and described.

Many Christians are intrigued to know their spiritual gifts, which is good – it’s a sign of spiritual maturity, a desire to take a relationship with Christ to the next level. Thus, there are whole curriculums, Sunday School classes, and seminars that have, and are, offered to help Christians discover their specific gifts.

What’s not good is the fact that most Christians consider this a once-and-done education.
To explain, once the training is complete and the Christian has diagnosed his/her spiritual gifts, s/he tends to “superglue” that badge to his/her chest as an immovable, permanent identification badge, allowing him/her the permission to take and leave various tasks for the kingdom. For example, if a person has determined that his/her spiritual gift is teaching, that means that s/he automatically give him or herself permission to say “no thank you” when it comes to serving in the nursery.  Or if a particular person has discovered that mercy is his/her spiritual gift, s/he is in no way obligated to paint the women’s bathroom at church.

There are several problems with this sort of mentality. First, when I read Romans 12 and other passages concerning spiritual gifts, I see nothing that suggests that the determination of spiritual gifts is a static activity – that it is something you discover once, and it never changes. Go ahead. Re-read the passage. Let me know if you see something that I missed.

If the truth be told, that sort of mentality is decidedly self-satisfying, not Spirit-led. To explain, to be in a dynamic relationship with Christ is to be in tune to His voice. “. . .but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires” Romans 8:5.

Our job as Spirit-filled people is to listen closely to His voice and do what He asks us to do when He asks us to do it. Likewise, when He asks us to do something, you can be 100% sure that He will equip us with the exact spiritual gift that we need at the exact moment that we need it. Therefore, it would seem as though the concept of spiritual gifts is more fluid versus fixed. The gifts themselves are fixed, but the recipient doesn’t just get one gift for life. Period. To believe that idea is adverse to what the Bible teaches about a life in the Spirit.

Likewise, to pick and choose service opportunities according to the spiritual gifts categories into which we have lumped ourselves is decidedly self-driven. For example, I am going to decide whether or not to serve in the capacity versus listening to see whether or not the Spirit is calling me to serve in that capacity. What we say and do is to be for God and should be determined by God, not by our preferences or natural inclinations.

Discovering our spiritual gifts is a good quest. However, it should not be a one-time destiny, thereby becoming a self-imposed limitation of what God can do with our lives. Check out Romans 12 again. . .what if God’s plan for YOUR life ultimately includes EVERY ONE of those gifts?

The potential blessings – for us and others – are limitless, beyond human imagination.


“Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing” John 15:4-5.

Saturday, April 5, 2014

Letting It Go: Praying Away the Bitterness and Anger in a Mother's Heart

Lord, the last couple of days have been a challenge.

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28

It all started on Thursday. While Mike and I were picking up Nick’s desk at the thrift store, Erika got the call she had been waiting for. Christa called to tell her that XXXX XXXXX Bible Camp would not be hiring her this year. The reason she gave was that the ten days for the Alaska trip would be just too long for Erika to be gone from camp . . .which is a lie, Lord. As I found out later, Lord, everyone in this house knew it right away, but it took a couple of hours before anyone dared to mention it out loud. Right now, we are confused as to why Christa would lie like that. Three years ago, when Nick and Luke were working at camp for the first year, they both were gone for a week to CHIC, so her justification does not add up.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart; lean not on your own understanding.” Proverbs 3: 5

She is the director of a Bible Camp, Lord. Why did she lie? I am struggling with the lack of integrity. I know that Satan likes to mess with people when they are down, Lord, but right now, the signs and details point to the fact that Erika didn’t get that job because someone or some people in leadership determined that Erika isn’t “Christian” enough. You and I both know, Lord, that her participation with youth group activities has decreased. She has reasons, but no one knows them, Lord, so people start making judgment calls about her spirituality. I know I am drawing conclusions, Lord, that I don’t know to be true, but since more than just I have had the same thought, it seems like a good possibility.

For you bless the godly, Lord; you surround them with your shield of love.” Psalm 5:12

It brings back an old hurt for me, Lord. When I was Erika’s age, the same thing happened to me. I tried out for Carpenter’s Tools. I spent a lot of time in preparing my musical number for the audition. When I was interviewed, I poured my heart and soul out – telling the truth and my most personal thoughts regarding faith. When we got to the end of the interview, I was feeling so good – optimistic and hopeful. Then, I will never forget this, Lord, because it was a knife to my heart. Dave XXXX, the director, said, “I sense that you are struggling with your faith. It seems that you are not right for this group.” But I wasn’t struggling. I knew exactly what I believed. I was so confused by what he said, and as soon as I got clear of the building, I burst into tears – bawled all the way home. His comments cut me to the core. Even now, I remember the depth of the pain – shame, embarrassment – especially after my best friend made the group. Later, in bitterness, I watched as several Carpenter’s Tools members participated in the group – praising Jesus and making a show of their faith – but their lifestyle choices weren’t matching up to what was coming out of their mouths. A couple were sneaking around, drinking, another confided to me that she thought she was pregnant and would I go with her to have a pregnancy test, and yet another did get pregnant and had a baby out of wedlock. And yet, I was the one struggling with my faith? That was such a bitter pill to swallow.

Look after each other so that none of you fails to receive the grace of God. Watch out that no poisonous root of bitterness grows up to trouble you, corrupting many.” Hebrews 12:15

And so, I was so disappointed when this happened to Erika. I was hoping she could avoid the same pain and situation. Like mother, like daughter.

“The Lord is good, a strong refuge when trouble comes. He is close to those who trust in him.” Nahum 1:7

Even though I had been preparing my head for a rejection from Camp, I didn’t expect the sucker punch the way it landed, Lord. I don’t know why I am taking it so personally, Lord. That’s why I had to go to bed on Thursday night. I didn’t want Erika to see me crying because that would just make her feel worse.

“For no one is abandoned by the Lord forever. Though he brings grief, he also shows compassion because of the greatness of his unfailing love. For he does not enjoy hurting people or causing them sorrow.” Lamentations 3:31-33

I just thought that this was the ticket, Lord. All of the dots seemed to line up. She has been taking an interest in her faith again. That’s huge after what happened at small group – first, Rocky and then Becca chewed her and Cass out and told them not to come back.  That made me mad too – to have to threaten her to go to youth group, then following Nick’s advice and just backing off. When she finally took the initiative to ask to order a devotion book and then apply at Camp, my heart took wings. I thought that Camp would be a place for her to keep the crescendo with regard to her faith.

The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness.” Zephaniah 3:17

Even as I was tossing and turning, praying with all my might on Thursday, Lord, I asked for you to say something, and you said, “I have something better in mind for her.” I am counting on it, Lord.

"My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts," says the LORD. "And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine” Isaiah 55:8

And then, Lord, Friday morning, Erika came upstairs and said, “I don’t know why I feel good this morning, Mom, but I do.” Thanks for that, Lord. I know you heard my prayers, and I am pretty sure that Amy was praying for her too.

For where two or three have gathered in my name; I am there in their midst.” Matthew 18:20

That’s when she told me she was probably going to go to the local community college in our town next year. She admitted that she didn’t know what she wanted to do with regard to a future career, and it was too expensive for her to go to XXX, her first choice school. It sounded as though she made herself feel better by saying, “Plus, it’s getting to be too late to apply for housing anyway.” You know how she had her heart set on living in a suite. It’s so sad, Lord.  But, the next thing she said was, “So now, what color do I get to paint the downstairs?” I am thankful, Lord, for the way she is able to shake things off and rebound so easily. She has always been like that. Either that, or she is really good at hiding her feelings. I know she does that too.

Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.” Psalm 139:23

Even though she has to revise her dream, Lord, Cass gets to follow hers. Lord, her Guidance Counselor tweaked her grades so that she can now go to XXX University. She has failed classes, Lord, and gets bad grades, but she gets to go away to school. Her mom and dad will just write the check. And then, there’s Erika, who has worked her tail off to get good grades and has a 3.7 GPA, and she gets stuck living at home, going to community college because she can’t afford anything else. I am happy that things have worked out for Cass, but where is the justice in that for Erika, Lord?

So the Lord must wait for you to come to Him so that he can show you his love and compassion. For the Lord is a faithful God. Blessed are those who wait for his help.” Isaiah 30:18

And then, Cass just walked in to XXXX, a local business, today, Lord, and she immediately was hired because her mom got her the job. She didn’t have to interview. She didn’t have to fill out any paperwork . . .while Erika has had to work at getting every job she has ever had. She just got crapped on by Camp after filling out a ginormous application and interviewing. Even today, Lord, she got chewed out AGAIN at work for inadvertent mistakes. She has admitted that she hates going to work because she is afraid of her managers. What the heck, Lord? What’s going on?

Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for him to act.” Psalm 37:7

And yet, Lord, you know my nature. Right or wrong, I emailed a couple of other camps to see if there were any positions left. I heard back from two. XXXXXXXX XXXXX has their summer staff positions filled, so they are out. And then, there was an email back from Felicia at XXXXX XXXX. Two positions are open  - janitorial and waterfront. She apologized that there were no counselor positions. I emailed back that Erika would prefer a support staff position anyway. If hope is a thing with feathers, then I felt a light brush across my cheek as it soared in the air. Through a whirlwind process, Erika got excited about the possibility and has applied. Now, we play the waiting game again.

Wait for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait for the Lord.” Psalm 27:14

Lord, we aren’t Baptists. Is this where you want her? Erika won’t know anyone. She has never been there before. . .but then again, we aren’t Baptists, but both Baptists and Covenanters believe in the same God – that He is the only way to heaven, so who cares if it’s a different denomination? Erika won’t know anyone; it will be a chance for her to be Erika, not Nick’s little sister. She will be able to make new friends. She will be able to make memories that are all her own. Most of all, she will be able to continue to grow in her faith and help others to do so too. Who knows? – she may or may not work there this summer.  It’s all up to you, God. I know that you love Erika, and I know you hear my prayers. I know that you have a plan for her, and help me to be content and trust that plan whatever it may be. Thank you for your patience with me, and thank you for being infinitely smarter and wiser than I could ever possibly be. You know best, and my hope is in you. Amen.


For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever.” 2 Corinthians 4:17.